To answer those questions honest is perhaps the biggest challenge that most of us will ever face in this life. We don't like to accept hard answers and the difficulties that those answers can present us with. We don't want to acknowledge that maybe we did something wrong, or maybe we aren't as good at something as we would like to believe. Maybe we know we should have acted a bit differently with our friends. Perhaps we shouldn't have spent so much time slacking off instead of getting our work done. What about all those times when we said we were doing good, but really weren't, and didn't want anyone to know?
Yeah, it seems to be rather a strange musing. But honestly, think about it, who is going to know? I look at my followers on this blog, and I don't have many. I'm not really using Facebook right now, so this won't get posted on there. So it would be those five people, if they ever bother to see it and check it. How many people really look at this?
And that's one of the questions that I ask myself - what matters? It's one of those questions that really stings a lot, perhaps the most, to ask. Do I really want to know that answer? Not usually, no, actually. I'd often much rather not. Sometimes it's simpler to continue on in the ignorance of my youth, the simplicity that it can bring to my life.
But it doesn't really matter, does it? Life has a great way of taking those things that we need to focus on and address and throwing them in our faces for us to see and acknowledge and deal with, whether we want to or not. It's just one of the many pains of life that we have to deal with, sadly.
